I give up dad

Dad, I just saw your number on my phone. I wish I could just call and you would pick up so we could talk. Dad, it painful to see your number on my contacts but iam not ready to remove it. Dad, I can’t remove your number. I don’t want to. I’m not ready. Dad, I wish I could hear your voice, I wish I could hear your laugh, I wish I could laugh with you when you were joking around. Dad, I miss you so freaking much. It hurts so much, it hurts in my heart. I just wanna cry. I wanna let my tears go but I can’t. I’m trying to be strong, I’m trying to not give up. I wanna be next to you. Dad, I wish there was a way so I could just call you for one last time and hear your voice. I just wanna hear your voice for the last time.

Dad, please, I don’t know how much longer I can do this. I wanna give up. I wanna be next to you. I’m sorry, I know you want me to be strong but I can’t. I’m happy now but deep inside I wanna die just so I can be in heaven next to you.

I love you my beautiful angel ♡