Nature | Photography | Brain on Vacation

I don’t like the snow and I’m sure that I really dislike the winter but sometimes some winter days has its moments when I feel how much it’s itching in my fingers tog grab my camera and go out for a walk to take photos. Uh I miss that. I miss that feeling to hold my camera in my hands and take photos and hope for the best ~ before I can do that again, I need a new laptop because.. mine is basically dead and I also need to read how to have the right settings etc.

Before, I had my camera in my bag no matter where I went! If I just went to the hospital for an appointment ~ there could be some detail I wanted to take photos off or something like that. I don’t like taking photos of people but I love taking landscaping photos and photos of nature / details. I really miss that. So when I have a laptop that is working… I will start again.

Sorry for crappy photos ~ they were taken with my cellphone which actually tricks me all the time! The photos look so good but when you start to zoom in a bit.. oh lord. I don’t know why it is like that!? Can’t anyone create a phone where it’s like a digital camera or something that doesn’t make the photos look like they need to be saved??! Like the quality is so bad! So I do apologize for the photos. 

The photos were taken on January 14 while Manne and I were out for a walk because I didn’t feel so good. I felt like I was burning up from the inside and out and yeah. I had no energy, it was like my brain was no longer exists *voice-mail sound* welcome to Emma’s brain. It is on a vacation for a while but we don’t know when it will be back. Leave a message after the beep or try to call back in 2 days* sorta. My eyes was going all over. I felt so bad guys. I can’t describe it! 
I still don’t feel good. I hope this is just something that will go away soon. My head is killing me and my eyes are burning just like my whole damn body. So I’m gonna wrap the post now and I’ll blog more later.  Muwah! 

Hurricane in my brain and unpleasant visitor

So many thoughts. So many things in my head. So many problems that need solutions.  So many questions that needs answers. So many feelings on the same time makes it feel like an hurricane is passing by. 

Ghosts, it’s freaking 5.37am here in Sweden and I still haven’t got any sleep yet. Why? I was dead hungry, my hips is killing me with massive pains. I don’t know why. Nothing works. No pills, not heat on them. I was so hungry so I had to warm up some choritzo stew that I’ve made. They say that spices becomes stronger when it has been frozen.. well yes! Omg! It burns and it feels like, if I burp now, fire will come out! Like a freaking dragon! Haha! Wow! Milk?? Well I haven’t been drinken milk since like….. a year or something.  So I don’t have that at home. Ah well.

My status on Facebook I posted. I don’t know why I post things on Facebook really. I normally post some boring stuff or when iam mad. I don’t know why, but being mad and write your anger out on Facebook feels so good because you know that no one in your family can ever find out what you think or feel. Sounds weird? Well my beloved ghosts, welcome to my haunted world.
Back to food ⬇

I covered a word I wrote in red but I think you all can figure out what it says. That’s how I felt when I was hungry. Like oh my God people! I wanted to start eating on something but I didn’t know what and then I remembered I had the stew in the refrigerator! HOLY GOD IT WAS SO GOOD… the first two bites.. then the fire came. Haha but still I ate a bit.

I’m gonna try and get some sleep.  Hopefully I will be able to fall asleep now when I’m not hungry anymore. Better hurry up to fall asleep before the hunger strikes again! GOODNIGHT GHOSTS! wait.. goodmorning for some of you.

👻❤

Hi daddy

Hi daddy, I miss you so much! Ever since I met honey, the moon has been up on the sky every night. Before I didn’t see it for a long time but now I do. Is this a sign from dad? When I found out that my dad had passed away, the moon was up and shined bright. And today it was up and shined down on me. Every time I see the moon I always say “Hi daddy”. I don’t know why but I have always done that since he passed away. Every time I saw the moon, I smiled and said it. It’s so weird I know but it’s my thing in this process. 

I wonder {my thinking} if this is a sign from dad. Sounds crazy but that’s just me. I hope it is and that dad approves Honey. {I call him Honey to keep him out of the blog right now}